We all made it through Week One of me being back at work! It wasn’t much of an adjustment for Neal, of course, because he was already going to work; he just had to get up a little earlier. Claire did really well, and has been showing progress everyday. On Monday, she refused to nap except when they all went for a walk in the stroller. Subsequently, she kept dozing off at supper:
But as the week wore on, she became more and more comfortable. On Thursday she actually had two naps! She is also eating really well, which makes me happy. She still cries when we bring her there in the morning, but yesterday her cries were a little less sad, and even before we left the room, she was starting to calm down. Strangely, she also cries when we go to pick her up. The ladies tell us they’re tears of joy.
As for work, I have to say… that I’m actually kind of happy to be back. The rational side of my brain tells me that that’s not a bad thing, and it doesn’t mean I’m a bad mother. But I do feel guilty about it. Don’t get me wrong – I HATE how little time I get with her in the evenings. We get home, have supper, and then there’s only a little bit of time for play before it’s time for her to get ready for bed. But I do enjoy my job, and I also enjoy being around other adults again.
I’m not in the same spot as I was before. I’m now on the second floor of our office (so the 22nd floor of our building), which has far fewer people on it. I will admit that when I first heard about it, I was a little sad because I used to be able to see the harbour from my old spot through one of the lawyer’s windows. Now I don’t have any windows around me.
But now that I’m there, I’m really happy. It’s nice and quiet, and I have personalized my desk, possibly more than before. I managed to take one picture before the camera battery died, and then once I put it on the computer, I realized there were court documents on my desk that showed up in the picture. It’s extremely difficult to make out any names, but ’tis better to be safe than sorry. So I’ll snap a picture next week.
